Where are you? As I lay here, my insides pouring out My heart aching with regret My mind, suffocated with doubt Where are you? As I cry out, “I’m lost and alone!” I don’t feel your presence as I lay here and moan Where are you? As I worry, for those I hold dear where is the comfort that replaces the fear Where are you? As I listen for your still quiet voice Why are you silent? Is it yours, or my choice? Where are you? As I plead, and beg for you to come Why don’t you answer? I’m slowly going...

There’s a certain kind of loneliness that settles inside it hides behind shining blue eyes There’s a certain kind of loneliness that no one can see you pretend you appear to be happy There’s a certain kind of loneliness that goes unobserved Insecurities grow attention feels undeserved There’s a certain kind of loneliness that makes a soul ache your grip tightens but you bend until you break I know a certain kind of...

I want to be filled with laughter have it spill out, uncontrolled like when I was a child before I began to withhold I want to do something amazing something I feel in my core like walk a thousand miles until I am broken, bruised and sore I want to be filled with wonder see things I can’t comprehend Like when you gaze across the ocean and question if there’s an end I want to live each and every moment not wasting a single one I want to try, and do, everything and finish all that I’ve begun I want to...

My hearts torn out, I’m ripped apart I want to go back to the start Before the stress, before the mess Before the nights of little rest Before these years of many tears Before all of these realized fears Back to the calm, a thankful Psalm back to when I knew the balm I’m broken now, destroyed somehow I’ve taken all I can...

I wish I could take your pain as my own             I’d bury it deep inside me For I am stronger, I can carry your load What breaks you, won’t break me I wish I could take your pain as my own It feels like it’s mine anyway Your cuts are my cuts, we both bleed the same blood If I try, I can’t wipe it away I wish I could take your pain as my own And see you happy once more Free from these burdens that shackle you down Released from all you...

Windows down, music up I feel my thoughts drifting Who cares where this old road leads I feel my spirits lifting nothing but the big blue sky Stretched out ahead of me Nothing but an open road as far as I can see So I drive My spirit comes alive when I drive Wind in my hair makes me feel alive So I drive Legs grip tight, hands in mane I feel the mare shifting A signal from me will set her free and we’ll be off, racing nothing but the big blue sky Stretched out ahead of me Nothing but an open field as far as I can see So I ride My spirit comes alive when I ride Wind in my hair makes me feel alive So I ride I need the sun on my face I need a wide open space I need the smell of the trees Floating in on the breeze I need the wind in my hair Nothing will compare To when I drive To when I...

I feel this tightening in my chest I’m sleeping more, but get no rest I’m ill equipped for trials like these The kind that drops you to your knees I don’t have answers that I need I ask for help, I beg, I plead I yearn for peace, a quiet heart Instead I’m being torn apart My failures rip myself in two My lack of knowing what to do I alone should hold the key Trusting eyes will look to me Instead I have to turn away I never know just what to say I stumble over broken thoughts Unable to connect the dots I long to climb up from this hole To feel a peace within my...

She sits holding her knees in the floor of the boat as the rope slips through her hand The anchor which held her safely at shore Now sits untethered in the sand She has no feelings for what she’s done this silent drifting away For it feels no different from the way she’s lived In a disconnected sort of way Going through the motions, playing the part Yet numb to the joys and the pains Disconnected from her heart, the ability to feel A shell is all that...

Since the beginning of this year, I have been given the privilege to be a part of a beautifully written show, Seasons the Musical. It is a dramatic musical, written by Elaine Pechacek and Kattie Hammond, that shares the story of 4 people over the course of a year. It is about love, personal journeys, and how they lean on each other to deal with trials like a cancer diagnosis and an unexpected pregnancy. I love this story because it is about real life. Everyone who sees this show can relate to it in some way.  I find myself continuing to see a new perspective every time we perform, and a new way in which it connects to me, or someone close to me in some way.  You will fall in love with the realistic characters. It is no mystery why we won 4 audience choice awards at the 2014 Orlando Fringe Festival, including Best of Fest, and Best Musical. This musical is so different from what’s out there right now. Everyone who has seen it has been touched, and has said, “this must be seen”. We have several dates around Florida coming up over the next few months. Find a Theater, and come see Seasons the Musical! Upcoming Show Dates: October 17 – 19 Moonlight Players Theater, Clermont, FL Get Tickets Here November 7-9, 14-16 Andrews Living Arts Center, Ft. Lauderdale, FL  January 22 – 24 2015 HCC MainStage Theater, YBor City      ...

Before we met, you were a part of me body swollen, heavy with your weight I protected you in your liquid cradle Desperate to hold who I helped create Hands so little, yet such a strong grip you responded to my every touch Heart swollen, arms heavy with your weight how could I possibly love this much? You’re getting older, I’m getting desperate… to keep you safe, to keep you close My heart is heavy with the weight It’s as it should be, I suppose It was easier when you were part of me I didn’t mind carrying your weight I could protect you, comfort and shield you Now I’m just desperate,  to hold who I helped...